IN SOME WAYS....

I've decided that i will dye my hair Blond next. its about time i think!! its turning orange after the pink! i really need to take care of this problem!

anyways I've also decided that my life will be ruled from now on, till I feel its time to stop, by Exercise, good food, music and women. [bahhahhaaa!! forget the last part!]  I think its about time that I take things more serious when it comes to my physical. I really want to hit my goal! And its about time that i really push my self to the max. Because this shit wont slide anymore! I want to do so much! I want to be so much and not even pushing my self and using the word Try isn't making me get any better or any more closer to my goal! 

I have a lot of people I admire right now, many of them set good influences on me, All of them are Men. [baahahahaaa!! sucks because men are wired differently then women. but i will do my best!] I think that the worst influence they have on my is Dyeing my hair! which to me is not as bad as Alcohol, because my hair is what makes me "ME" and with it all tattered and messed up I will cry! haha! just kidding! anyways.

In some ways I really would like to follow their foot steps. I might not make it out of this place and out in the world like them but... I think that in some ways I can have a shot at at least looking as fly and cool like them. I already think I can be as cool [AAHHHAHA! in my dreams] but i still need some work.

I feel that someday i will be someone that some people will look up to. [that's a lot of some's]

Till then i need to grow and start changing the bad to good as soon as I can! because like it or not appearances can be everything, it can limit you and it can also bust you up! don't believe me? Open your eyes and look at the TV.

Anyways looking to be great someday.

ms. Changes