well....

I already started signing up for any Job that will have me. This really sucks.. i keep thinking about my problem. I went over to my mothers today and talked to her about it but.... As always. She Just laughs at me and asks me "well what are you going to do?"
well mom here's what I'm thinking of doing with my foot, it involves your ass just so you know.
Nah i couldn't say it to her face, i couldn't slap her ether even though i visualized it so clearly and wonderfully in my mind. I wish i had the balls to do it someday. F*ck if she hits me back its ok, I would just be glad i would have done it.

Anyways wanting to hurt my mom aside, i have nothing. I only had a walmat Card that i got from a friend [wtf!!] that had $10 in it and wasted it all on eyeliner and wax!!! [WTF!!!!!]  that eye liner is really good so I'm not going to complain to much, and that wax looked good, [can't wait to try it on after i get my hair cut again] I wish that money was not in a walmart Card but, fuck! now i only have like about [just maybe] $5 in Quarters, maybe about 2 in Nickles and about [possibly] 6 in Dimes.
Fuck that is no where near the amount i need!! [i need to check again what i want to get!] i really would love to get the one for the Meet and great and all the goodies but i don't think i will ever make it that high! :( i could be wrong but maybe some one will lend me money for the regular... which to me is better then nothing right now because i got no money..... But That meet and great sure seems really tempting.... gosh!!! i see what i can do!

Dir en grey!!! no mater what i will see you live again!! i will! if i get lucky i will see you face to face... all of you except Kyo i know. :(