Kyo.

Today i will talk about one person. some one that i look up to. A person that i have been wanting to meet for as long as i know. I feel that sometimes, we share the same views about the human nature. and i would love to have an on going talk with someone that in the end wouldn't think i'm crazy or would want to report me to the police or the governments for human endangerment, if there is such a thing. He also seems to have a love for animals that i have my self, i may not always want to be with people, but i always have room in my heart for an animal. This wonderful man i hold so high on a pedestal, higher then my own mothers is, Kyo.


I don't give a damn about what other people my think about him, he is one person that not even HE can change my mind about him. He is to me a very interesting person, and I'm sure to others as well. His band, Dir en Grey was the first Japanese Rock band that i have ever heard. The first song was called Umbrella, then Filth, then Obscure. I feel in love with Obscure, at the time i didn't have internet i was about 11 or 10, i guess you can say still a young age to be listening to something like that? I didn't know what they looked like or anything so don't say i liked them because of the way they look, because i do find them attractive. I didn't even understand the Japanese Language at the time , it was so new to me, it was something i haven't heard before but felt a connection to. this was the music, the band, the person, that will change everything.

As a young girl i was in love with all things scary, my favorite Holiday was Halloween, my color of choice was always black, i would never be scared of the Gothic even when at that the age of 6 kids would cry over something so dark and scary, I would watch nightmare before Christmas even when my older brothers and younger sister would be scared of it, i would watch Beetle Juice the movie none stop knowing it made my little sister cry in the beginning with the creepy song that brought chills to my spine, i loved it. I would be the only one of my siblings to watch Interview with the Vampire and love it!  I'm a music lover, at my young age i would listen to anything and everything, i also feel that because i had been raised by a gay uncle it opened up my love for gays, Madonna, makeup and leather. all that music was presented to me, hip hop, rock, alternative, British pop, Dance and all that jazz, but for some reason my music preference was Manson [at the time he was scary] and a kind of Gothic Orchestra sound. i was in to ghost stories and scary stuff like that.

As you can see i was never really the normal girl at school. I was picked on quite a lot, i was used and neglected, molested and laughed at. My parents both worked hard and came home tiered. So i kept all that pain to my self, i felt that they didn't need another problem. There was never an escape from the pain, i would come home and my older sister would pick on me and hurt me Physically, but nothing could be worse then emotionally. I still wait the day when she would stop calling me a liar and apologies, even when i know that it still might not be enough. I hold in all this pain and i let people push me around, i never spoke up for my self, and that is something i still regret, i don't have a screaming voice, and for that I say sorry to my self. From all of this pain i grew to Hate everyone and anyone, I would wish for everyone who hurt me to die, I couldn't trust a soul not even the ones that gave me life. 

But hey, i'm not that violent, i could never kill someone, I cried when i killed that poor frog when i was little i don't think i could do it now. I can wish it on people, but that's a whole different story. 

I was never given pity so why should i show it to others? That's why my nickname from my Friends is Wrath. The music from Dir en Grey makes me feel like I'm not wrong for thinking what i do about humans. It lets me understand how twisted the world is and in a way lets me know that I'm not as bad. Kyo doesn't let me down with his Lyrics, I'm glad i found some one [or a group of someones] That aren't afraid to reach in and tear out the guts of the human race and show them "this is how ugly and disgusting you can be, you're all fucked up and so am i!"

So once again i don't give a shit what You think about Kyo, he is my IDOL and it will stay that way till i dye.

Ms.Wrath