What can i do? I lend a helping hand and all but... It sucks when you like some one and its so obvious they are using you, it sucks when he knows how you feel but does it anyway.
I wish i wasn't so kind sometimes, but i can't help it, i feel sad right now but i can't help but smile and let him know how i feel.
This isn't the first time so it makes it even more painful for me. But what am i to their eyes? some one they can use? Just another Fish? How can i bring my self to say no when i really like some one.
I know he is using me yet i still end up smiling when he thanks me for what I've done for him.
He could have at least made it less obvious, He started up a conversation with me, started it by saying thank you, you have really helped me out a lot, then goes on to say can you help me out one more time, then when i do as he asked he stopped talking to me. Its my own fault for making my self so easily pushable, What can i do? i don't want to look like a fool by saying to him hey! "I can't help you anymore, all those times i helped you out is because i really liked you and I couldn't say no, I still like you but i can't keep letting my self be used like this."
How stupid will that be? He always asks for an explanation and even if I don't let him know he will find out because he is clever like that..... Gosh i'm such a fool!
Shou!! help me! I feel so... stupid and pathetic.... let me not smile anymore unless its from the heart! I don't want to bend to any ones will but my own anymore.
Andy [wrath] the spaz Andrea
who i'm doing, who i've done
"ლ( •`○ •"ლ) get your fucking hands up!
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